sharon

HERPEACE

2010-12-25T17:43:00.002+08:00

INFLUENZA (ANNUAL YOUTH CAMP 2010) has definitely served it's purpose, in line with FGA's vision as to impact lives. This year's camp was far-fetched and perpetually fulfilling beyond many biblical proportions.

Through the course of that 5 days 4 nights, I saw the hand of God move so mightily in the midst of all of us, I saw how His presence poured down on all of us in such a great way, I saw many lives touched and transformed, and I encountered the Lord.

Pastor Andy's sermons had a way of striking deep into people's hearts and with all gratitude to both him and Eugene, his message had given us all a revelation of our identity in Christ and how the Lord has purposed in us a plan that will (humanly impossible but possible with God) change the world and make the Lord's name known.

The Lord posed a question for me during this year's camp on whether I knew who I was IN HIM. Sometimes, we have the tenacity to feel rather inferior, surrounded by insecurities and doubt that we're too small to be used by the Lord or even we have such a mindset that we are not worthy to be used by Him. But the Lord thinks and knows differently. He already had both a purpose and destiny for us regardless of whatever circumstance we are in currently.

Being in this camp has made all the difference, really.

static thoughts.

2010-10-03T00:14:00.004+08:00

The memories we keep etched in our hearts will stay forever if we want it to..

the moment it ends.

2010-09-16T02:01:00.004+08:00

Self-imposed hiatus starts now.

So long and goodbye.

moving on.

2010-08-17T00:02:00.002+08:00

Yesterday I got lost in the circus,

Feeling like such a mess.

And now I'm down,

I'm just hanging on the corner.

I can't help but reminisce.

Cause when you're gone,

All the colors fade.

When you're gone,

No new year's day parade.

You're gone,

Colors seem to fade.

To completion.

2010-07-22T23:20:00.002+08:00

Viva Espania
by: Sharon Leow Hsin Yuek

FIFA World Cup 2010, hosted by South Africa has certainly put on a spectacular show for football fans everywhere. It has definitely opened the eyes of the world to what South Africa has to offer even when their very existence as a united and non-racial nation was being questioned recently. In this year’s edition, we’ve witnessed bruised egos, (forlorn Robert Green, England’s goalkeeper who made a mistake of galactic proportions when like a shortstop, attempted to save the ball, only to find it angling off to his right and landing into England’s goalpost) player strikes and referees embarrassed.

There was even a new ‘Hand of God’ by none other than Louis Suarez (Uruguay) that has taken the media by storm on how he successfully tipped off Diego Maradona’s position as the record holder of the new football iconic movement. Unfortunately, Louis Suarez’s so-called ‘Hand of God’ has raised public discourse on ethical issues on the field while a match is on.

Much to everybody’s surprise, both teams from Spain and Holland played rather poorly in the finals for large parts of the night. Even pop star Shakira was seen the best performer during the closing ceremony for this year’s World Cup. Spain, after an hour and fifteen minutes of no goals with additional time, approximately fifteen minutes was triumphant, thanks to Andres Iniesta. Known for switching wings and exploiting the spaces his quick passing team-mates tease open saved the best for the last by scoring the winner in the finals. So that was the 2010 World Cup, a one month showpiece that delivered Spain as ultimate champions and shattered the dreams of Holland which in the end had to admit it’s defeat.

Poster boys Lionel Messi, Wayne Rooney, and Christiano Ronaldo all failed to live up to the pre-tournament hype. Messi, favoured by all-star player, Maradona had certainly performed less than average after sabotaging his chances of scoring numerous goals for Argentina. As for Rooney and Ronaldo, both with expectations on scoring definitely left football fans disappointed with their poor performance. In their place, the World Cup showcased new talents like Thomas Mueller who was awarded the Golden Boot Winner and Young Player of the Tournament – made Germany proud and Mesut Ozil whom performed outstandingly has caught the attention of Europe’s top clubs.

All in all, it was an amazing four-week experience for football fans around the globe. Spain, powered by the sleek and easy-on-the-eye style triumphed over Holland’s muscular harassment in the World Cup final in South Africa on Sunday. Viva espania!

the rush.

2010-07-18T23:13:00.005+08:00

When calamity overtakes you like a storm;

When disaster sweeps over you like a whirlwind;

When distress and trouble starts to overwhelm you;

When you start to question on the things taking place;

Remember the moments in your life that made you smile.

Remember the moments in your life that made you laugh.

Remember that some things in life happen beyond our understanding.

But all in all;

Remember that God's hand will guide you to the direction He wants you to take.

Remember that God is always, and always with you.

So open your heart and let Him reveal Himself to you.

God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble

Psalms 46;1

oh, sweet strawberry seeds.

2010-06-18T21:23:00.006+08:00

Oh bugger;
I've at least approximately 6 more minutes to give you a short write-up on Camerons before BM literature gets the best out of me.

Ahh. Duh-Duh! I've just about everything to say as I'm pretty exuberant when it comes to summarizing last week's trip.

Darn. 2 more minutes to spare.

With such clog-loads of fun, sheer laughter and excitement, there were no uncertainties that we had a great time and it was a well assured good time consumer.

Even the strawberries couldn't keep up with us! (That wasn't supposed to make sense)

But nevertheless, all 17 of us have our energy redoubled and are psyched up for anything that the LORD puts in front of us.

And I've exceeded my time by 7 minutes. Oh the Joy.

yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive.

2010-06-16T21:51:00.003+08:00

What the world needs is a better tomorrow.

You must be the change you wish to see in the world.

-Guess who? Preeminent leader of Indian Nationalism.

into yesterday.

2010-06-08T19:16:00.001+08:00

Singapore; Here I come.

nuthin' but blue skies.

2010-06-06T23:30:00.004+08:00

One of the many perks competing in the annual Drama Competition (State Level) :

1) Watching your director clown herself in front of the missus-head-mistress.

2) Attempting the good ol' stick and hat dance? Or was it tap?

3) Having played-on conflicts with friends.

4) Taking pretty pictures.

5) Feasting over a wide range of grassland in ShangWu's school field.

bring out the watering cans.

2010-05-20T23:47:00.002+08:00

The very much awaited day as this marks the end point of my stress-carrying-marathon.

I've anticipated this precise moment all too much that I'd drool just thinking about it.

I can finally let out a sigh of relief that anything that has to do with :

1) Wave challenge yr 2010

2) Postal Bible Quiz (prep.)

3) Piano examinations (prep.)

4) Drama competition Kelompok Level

5) Orchestra concert by popular demand

6) Midterms

is most definitely over and has undeniably drained my energy during the course of time, much to the extent where I'm shouting off rooftops declaring my finally-given FREEDOM.

Hoorah.

brain juice anyone?

2010-05-12T18:41:00.000+08:00

Our braincells are to the extent of denaturing already

flip a page.

2010-04-29T19:43:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, I gazed at the stars twinkling down on me and I thought to myself;

time flies faster than we realize it

cauz' we ain't the lousies.

2010-04-21T23:31:00.001+08:00

Drama comp. kelompok level is over.

Now moving on...

the change we need.

2010-04-13T20:32:00.000+08:00

See the world around you and try to make it better.

Make me believe in something real.

2010-04-03T00:53:00.000+08:00

The things we do during addmath tuition

being the bridge.

2010-03-31T17:07:00.005+08:00

With a heavy workload of unfathomable add math questions to complete which was rather revolting at first, and now that I've numbed up to all of those, I've made my decision to give you a little something from this yr's worship retreat and Paint Your World Event.

Throughout the course of this retreat :

I've gained better knowledge and understanding about the insights of God and the Word

I've learned that strong relationships between each and every worship team member is crucial and should be formed

I've learned to grow with my fellow friends by taking part wholly in every nonsensical act they did during the retreat

I've learned to put away all distractions and to meditate on His word

I've learned to appreciate Ps Victor Lim who has always been our pillar of strength and our counsellor in times of need

I've learned that every song comes from God and not by our own human will

I've learned that persistent prayers are people we should become

This year's worship retreat was much like a joy ride.

Most times, I felt convicted by the past, the mistakes I've made as a person and the sins I've committed - but that sure did not dampen my spirits as I seeked the LORD everyday with all my heart.

There was this longing inside of me for me to leave the path I've taken on before and start a whole new journey with Him.

Praise God, for the amazing things He's done during and after that retreat!

It was a real blessing!

...Much after receiving His blessings and love, Saturday was the appointed time that God put for us to share His love to the community which God has poured out on us, unconditionally.

A hall-full of people all geared up to scrape and paint the railings of Rifle Range. There was much exposure through the community work that we've been put through.

Rawr rawr rawr to those who came!

WE DAH SCRAPERS, Ya'll!

pay no mind.

2010-03-29T18:38:00.002+08:00

Hello lonely, would you like to be my new best friend?

2010-03-11T21:35:00.004+08:00

My assignment title was The Mad Scientist.

I picked Albert Einstein for no reason.

Ahh, dry humor.

Maybe it'll earn me some marks for this one. LoL!

tell you I'm sorry.

2010-03-09T20:59:00.008+08:00

Everything is in the wrong order. Do bear in mind, the photos start from the bottom to the top.

Here's the gist of HK and Macau. Hopefully, you'd experience half of its wonders through these photos I've compiled.

Avenue of Stars. Dead people too.

Ice cream on a 5 degree morning.

Some bohemian flower statue thingy which happens to represent HK in someway.

View overlooking HK island

The ever famous lady with the blown up skirt.

Astroboy!

Justice shall be served! Right Obama?

Helping Hitler pick his nose.

Nicole Kidman

Us cousins hogging the steamboat.

The streets of Macau on a chilly night.

Sharon and the awesome ones.

Hard Rock Hotel.

Lunch for us all.

The start of our trip.

A good read.

2010-03-03T17:21:00.007+08:00

There are countless moments in life which determines who we are as people in the mere future. They are those moments comprising of the good and the bad. All of which to strengthen us for the better.

Here's my moment. [2/3 - 3/3]

But before I proceed to the further details. Here's my past. [2009]

It was a different year. A year of change one could say. Moved up from the 2nd class to the 1st. Expectations on myself weren't that high, to say the least. All I wanted was to try my best. My class consisted of 34 or more people. All of them are highly competitive. But nevertheless, I told myself that all I needed to do was to try my best. Let no comparison take place between you and another classmate. But instead, do yourself a favour and work yourself up to their standard.

Test after test...examination after examination...I achieved grades which were far beyond my expectations. I accomplished the many goals which were left aside the years before.

I knew it was God. With His great and awesome power and His mighty strength. He has helped sustained me through my times of need, He has walked with me through my accomplishments and made them all an actuality.

But the months passed. The grades obviously got better and better. My reliability and my dependability on God decreased to such an extent where all my accomplishments were made known to me as a result of my own strength and not His.

[2/3 - 3/3] - First monthly test of 2010

Preparations went rather well. I managed a heavy load of chapters from all 9 subjects, plus a trip to Hong Kong which in turn made me start to slack. But all in all, I did handle it pretty well. The one thing that I didn't was depending on God for this coming test. I made it an effort to study as hard as I can knowing that the results will be the product from my own strength.

The second day of exam came, Math Test. Simple. Easy. Smooth flowing. Objective questions done. Subjective questions done. GRAPH that needs to be drawn with a total of 12 marks...I had at least 30 extra minutes to complete that graph. The questions for that graph was simple. I knew them all by heart. I could even recite the formula of how to solve it for you. Then we had to find the x values by substituting the y values. Just a substitution method which cost me 30 minutes cause my calculator couldn't calculate...I managed to draw the graph but not the straight line in time.

I lost a-plenty of marks that day. A downcast feeling just washed over me. I was disappointed. I was sad. I was mad at myself. It happened so fast that I questioned God over this matter. How He could have prevented me from losing those precious marks but He didn't.

Today. Chemistry paper. Again, I did my best. Revised everything at least thrice. When the exam arrived, I did question by question with full anticipation of the next. Objective portion done. I had at least 40 more minutes to spare for the subjective part.

Suddenly...a pain could be felt in my stomach. I thought to myself. Crap, not now. Not now for a stomach cramp. I whispered in my heart, pleading to God...Help me? Please not now? The pain got worse till it was overbearing. I had hardly enough concentration to finish up one long question. With whatever I had left in me, I just simply wrote what came to my mind first.

The answer consisted of 7 marks. I lost 7 marks through something as minute as a stomach cramp. Again, I continued on with my rants over how only things like these happen to other people and not me.

I complained to my friends, my mom and God. But I paused to think about Job's life in the bible. It is said God gave Satan the authority to do whatever he wants to Job's life except taking his life away. Satan stripped him off everything that he had. His possesions, his family, his friends, his SUCCESS, his integrity...

But all Job did was persevere and thank God for everything that he has done no matter how much turmoil he was in.

This convicted me so much till I didn't give another bother about the loss of marks during my monthly test. I should be thanking Him for what He's done. For how He has sustained me even more last year. Regardless of what happened today and yesterday.

But we ask ourselves..."Why do all these bad things happen to me?"

People may say..."God is making you strong. God wants you to overcome this weakness that you have so that you'll be ready for the next obstacle"

I came home today. With questions unanswered. This time, without switching on the tele for the first time after an exam, I read the book of Job quietly in my room. Hoping for a revelation from God.

I flipped the pages slowly one after another. To my dismay, nothing seemed relevant (That's cause I was skimming) Till this page where a paper shaped flame was placed inside. If I'm not mistaken, it was Justin's paper birthday candle flame for his marshmallow cake on his birthday last year.

Next to the paper shaped flame was a verse.

Job 37 ; 5

God's voice thunders in marvelous ways;

He does great things beyond our understanding.

Sometimes we can't comprehend why these things happen to us. But there is always a reason behind it. I believe it was to change me to be a better person. I believe this moment was placed there to make me realize how I can never accomplish something without His help and guidance. I believe this moment was there to make me depend on Him more the next time I am placed in another situation as this.

Hopefully through all this, I've learnt my lesson that it is Him, I need to constantly put my trust on.

who did this?

2010-03-02T20:53:00.003+08:00

Dear God,

You are in control of everything. Though there are moments when I've given up and lost all ounce of picking myself back up, You are here with me.

Every step of the way.

I know You are.

we pray we live, to see another day in history

2010-02-11T18:02:00.002+08:00

All in a week.

I have trouble explaining it all.

But I will,

someday.

Ciao.

pause.

2010-02-06T00:26:00.002+08:00

need a break from reality. unfortunately, that never happens.

perpetual distance.

2010-02-02T16:49:00.005+08:00

I promised you a write-up on my Prefects Camp.

With not much to mention on an event such as this, just that this camp has most definitely met its objective which is to bond with one another and to get more attached seeing as even some student bodies may possess cliques which aren't at all good.

Pictures for all to see which displays teamwork, healthy relationships and sheer good fun for all of us.

Enjoy! C:

Cezanne and her uncoordinated friend.

Geared up for a game of treasure hunt.

Andria, thy heavy burdens you have to carry as a Head.

Backside SHOT.

Sharon and those tawdry looking thangs.

Basking in the sun.

Groups.

Sand pyramids on a hot sunny day.

BOP yr 2010.

The unstoppable force of evil -my partner- and OJ!

Heads and shoulders, knees and toes.

Cezanne.

Toodahluu! C:

ponder.

2010-01-31T23:52:00.004+08:00

It's funny how some things are just out of our control.

It's odd how we can never seem to prevent them from happening no matter how much effort we put into it.

Regardless of whether it be inevitable or not, everything happens for a reason.

Take care, friends C:

Come back all in one piece.

facade.

2010-01-28T23:13:00.003+08:00

I'll update soon on Prefects Camp, which might I add was a blast - once I'm out of my crappy state, that is.

Senior year can be tiring. Too many commitments would mean losing focus on your goals for this year.

Nevertheless, it's something we all need to work on. To manage our time well enough.

For now.

BUUUSSSHHHHH!!! I'm outta here.

contemplate.

2010-01-21T22:52:00.001+08:00

Well, it's that time of the year again. Rawr!

More to come.

expectations.

2010-01-15T23:39:00.004+08:00

Provisions might not come easy for them.

They search for shelter.

Their hopes and dreams crushed by the horrors of reality.

Another night would be a miracle.

Would you stand up for what Christ has called us to do?

Would you reach out?

Would you touch them as how Christ has touched you?

Don't let complacency get to you.

Your kingdom come, Your will be done, God. On earth as it is in heaven.

paint the stars for me.

2010-01-10T22:30:00.001+08:00

You smile just like the sun;

i shall never grow up.

2010-01-09T00:59:00.003+08:00

make believe is much too fun...

ahhh...and thus, the year ends as instantaneously as the year before. Oh the joy.

Looking back, I take pride on how I've managed to cope with another year. How I've learnt to pick myself up when I fell. How I've experienced God's amazing and unconditional love once again when he knew I was spiritually dry. How I've learnt to make certain sacrifices for the people that I truly care for. How I've realized the mistakes I've made in the past and am willing to change my ways and old habits to strive to be a better person.

This year, though many obstacles along the way - has been a huge stepping stone for me. It has somehow, moulded my character, my personality, me...to be someone else entirely different. Someone else whom God wants and expects of me to be.

I thank God for year 2009 cause without it, there wouldn't be new experiences in my life. All which has made me trust in Him more.

Today, with a new resolution. I want to change the world. I want to be the gospel, not just know it. I want to serve others for it would serve Him.

Watch out, world! A whole lot of revival is coming!

Just you wait and see. C:

pink.

2010-01-03T22:33:00.002+08:00

I could crash and burn but maybe...maybe, at the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me

wishes...they never grow old.

2009-12-25T18:25:00.002+08:00

Happy belated 18th, buddy!

And a MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!

Enjoy.

I need you.

2009-12-20T21:31:00.002+08:00

Here's an attestation for this year's anual youth camp. It might not be much but I pray that through this, you will be blessed amazingly, be it whether it emboldens and rallies you to put your faith in Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior or even make you smile.

Wait. Stop. And think back to the time, 2 years ago. How God amazingly and singlehandedly (I'm just filling up the adjectives!) opened our eyes and our hearts to understand his will which needs to be done in our lives. With little expectation on what was to transpire, God spoke to me and I listened intently with so much willingness in my life.

It has been my passion to see people at my age, hungry for God and his love. And that I knew was what God has called me to do. To put my spiritual gifts into action in one of the many ministries there are in church. I served him with commitment that I can never seem to find in the other organizations I involve myself in, out of church.

2 years have passed. The fire in me, a little dim but yet still there. As if I was holding onto the tip of an iceberg, trying to hold onto God as long as I could. At times, church felt much like a pattern, like a habitual programme we undergo. Few weeks ago, as if it caught me off-guard, thoughts crept into my mind. Doubts started to hover above me.

Is God real? Was God someone I could count on? Maybe the world's just living a lie, thinking that they know God was real...

Wait, I knew he was real. His presence has been so evident in my life, every single day. I knew he was there. But why did my heart hardened? Why did I choose to ignore the reality of Him? I ask myself still. My faith in Him was lacking eventhough I knew He was real. I shoved Him off, God wasn't exactly the center piece of my life during that phase.

But I knew I needed to do something. This spur of madness needed to stop. I needed to get back to where I was two years ago. That's where TRANSCEND AYC 2009 came in.

I prayed. That God would reveal Himself to me again. I prayed that this phase was just provisional. That my faith would be UPSIZED. That I would be free from all these thoughts which has left a void in my life which needed to be filled by His love and mercy.

This year's camp has been different. And I got worried, that when I got back, my life would still be the same. On the fourth day, as if it was a miracle, Joyce and I were scheduled to worship lead. I hadn't had much time to work out the songs for that night. Little prayer was involved. But the song 'This Is My Desire' had kept me awake the night before.

To cut a long story short, we sang that song the other night. Much to my amazement, God's presence swept through the hall and left many of the congregation on their knees, lifting their hands and giving their lives to God.

Guilt washed over me. It took me back to the time 2 years ago where I stood on the same spot, worship leading, and divulging to God about how I wanted to see a generation, my generation surrendering their lives to God, putting God first. As if it was a voice in my heart, it questioned me..."has God been real to you now? Your passion to see a generation grow with selfless faith, hungry for him is right before you. What you wanted to see, God has shown you. He is real. I am real."

I wept.

Times when you feel like God isn't there. God isn't listening to you. You're wrong. It's whether you choose to listen to him, whether you choose to open up your heart entirely to let him in. I made a mistake when I chose to take the other path, ignoring the voice of God, allowing thoughts to come by and destroy my faith in the Lord. But I know that things happen for a reason. And it has impacted me all the more to renew my strength and my faith in Him.

You ask me how I know He lives...He lives within my heart.

tomorrow.

2009-12-13T22:41:00.002+08:00

Camp is just hours away.

I expect a break through in my life this week.

I want to be freed from certain things in certain areas of my life.

I want to transcend to a higher level.

God, be with me and the rest of them in AYC 2009.

See you on the other side peeps! (:

empty.

2009-12-07T14:04:00.003+08:00

Maybe we're trying.

Trying too hard.

Maybe we're torn apart.

I miss Youth Camp, 2007.

oh, inconsistency.

2009-12-02T22:27:00.008+08:00

Much to my disappointment, no. I have not done anything productive this week. The only thing I can think of which so far could've been classified as "productive", mind you - was soaking the overpiled clothes and wringing them, and clearing my very congested room. Lets all not forget that specific part which could've cost me my allergies with all the dust particles floating around in the air.

Other than that, I've been constantly checking up on my Cafe World which is pweedy interesting. And the long hours of television which keeps me from dozing off on the chair. Yeah, that's my holidays for you.

I wish there was more, though. Than sitting and moping around at home. I feel there's more. More to look forward to than just the normal routine we go through everyday which seems so dull at the moment. Oh, the joy.

Anybody for bungee jumping this weekend?!

Moving on...

Annual family reunions are never a bore. They make me happy in one way or another.

It's just the way they are, y'know?!

Something Andrew thought was 'out of this world'

Eulene's being nice. Not asking for money on a non-school night with her friends. Lets not pick on her, shall we?

Though, I think she regretted bringing along such a small amount with us.

We had this picture taken, as proof that males such as Andrew can lose a substantial amount of braincells just by eating out with us, ladies. Just look at his eyes, boring into the nothingness at the opposite side of him.

The very few minutes we took to decide to go where next.

Nicole's bag = Fully functional as a handbag or just an umbrella for shelter when it drizzles.

SUNDAE CONES on TUESDAY

Well, that leaves me with another boring week.

Till whenever I see you Mae.

Have a jolly good time in France. Peace out X)

slow-ride.

2009-11-19T16:04:00.002+08:00

Today. School. Impulsive moment of madness. Why? Let me explain. Briefly.

1) Andria. For one, she was pestering me to let her in on the latest information which I find very plain.

2) Cezanne. With her attention span shortening every once in a while when I seem to bore her.

3) Czen Yhi. Hilarious as always. Convincing me to hide under the table with her.

4) Valarie. Non-stop laughter.

I couldn't say today was as dull as ever. Cause to heck if it was. We've finally concluded the pro-longed Jumble Sale we've been having since last week. To think, we'd raise a total amount of RM 894. Ahh, the advantages of having friends who are much too business-like and well trained before this event. I cleaned out the shelves in my prefects room. Whoop-dee-doo! =.= Allergies came soon after though. But all is well, now that the shelves are all spick and span.

I teased Valerie Yentl today! She laughed back with great excitement. Hahaha! Though it was just for kicks. Cezanne had a hard time going through today though. Nyeh. No more tennis for her. So we all settled for a good game of non-stop Cluedo. It could've lasted longer but I gave up. With Megan and Chand, we rambled on over how to heat chocolate and Jamie Oliver's cooking shows. (So far, the most ideal discussion in the library)

Czen Yhi on the other hand made me hide under the table with her in the prefects room when we heard Cezanne coming.

Ahh. School life and its perks. Nyeh.

Tomorrow is a different day entirely.

Hopefully, there are no tears to shed.

appreciate.

2009-11-18T20:15:00.008+08:00

Thank you, God. For placing many sweet and memorable moments in our life.

Thank you, God. For giving us strength to let go of the past.

Thank you, God. For granting us confidence to step out into the dark when all that was left in our hearts was fear.

Thank you, God. For your amazing love.

fade away.

2009-11-15T18:25:00.005+08:00

Nobody said it was easy.

Something I've been pondering on since last night. Last night's message during Youth, well...lets just say, it really hit home for me. Or however you'd like to put it. It's the thought of how have we actually come to the extremity where we are living our lives as REAL christians. Not just christians who show up to church and youth services on Saturdays and Sundays. Most to most, even Fridays as well. Not just weekend christians with an utter or absolute personality and character which is very much at odds during the days when we do not attend church.

We are all called to be an irresistible influence to all at any time, anywhere and at any place.

Looking back at the past, I must admit that there is much more for me in life which I have yet to accomplish. And frankly, I have high expectations on myself to be more than what I am today. But I guess, it all takes time and maturity. Nevertheless, I know, with every ounce of enthusiam and exhilaration...that I'll make it through, that I'll never forget my purpose of being here. Even if I tend to stray away, I know...God'll help me out in one way or another.

Heck, don't worry and be happy, right?

guilt.

2009-11-12T23:02:00.002+08:00

Crap lah wei?!

I miss them alreadaayyy!

It's this point of time when you're really deprived of friends. Especially when they're all the way in KL, most probably shopping, creating havoc and sneaking into each other's rooms to sleep over!

Nooooo...

The sense of loneliness creeping over me, making me drown...

Haah! School wasn't that bad actually. Sure it could've been a whole lot better when those motor mouths were back in class instead of going on that trip. But I guess, it's my loss for not agreeing on going after much effort from them when negotiating with me.

I'm sorry, friends. =(

For now, I'll be keeping myself busy with the Jumble Sale held in my school, irritating Ame and Mae while all of you are on your way to Sunway Lagoon tomorrow.

LoL.

spin.

2009-11-09T21:48:00.003+08:00

French onion soup anyone?

I'm currently waiting for it to be served in Cafe World. The game I'm currently addicted too!

Cheeriiooossss!

I'm off!

thirteen.

2009-11-06T17:17:00.003+08:00

I wish I knew the answers to the questions I kept hidden in my heart. I wish I could understand a little bit more of the changes which takes place in a person. I wish I'd see the truth in all of this. It's human nature after all, am I right? Where a person reaches adolescence, it's a norm for him/her to change. Something so palpable like this, I can notice.

Change. I will honestly dislike that word till the day I die and my body rests where my grave is. Maybe it's me. I've always been known to be the oversensitive one, after all. Maybe I can't face facts of a person's personality change as much as other people do. But I just can't help it. I try, I give it my all but it still comes down to the point where I am at my lowest...state? Or however you put it.

Questions arise...I have the propensity to question myself the past couple of hours on how was I really like when I was 12. Was I still the same as I am now and today? Was it worth having to go through the mistakes which could've been prevented if I was a little bit more careful? What if my past has affected someone else in such a negative manner?

As a sister, I've come a long way. I might not have met the many obstacles layed out for a person and I know more is yet to come, but I know a couple or two things there is to know to help me go through life as it is now. So please do listen to me when I tell you that it isn't the right thing to do.

the more i think.

2009-11-05T22:49:00.002+08:00

I'd call it adventurous. By far, it would've been the only extreme thing I'd be getting myself into in school especially when related to the HM. Knowing me, I wouldn't ever have the guts to face the principal unless called to do so. A sense of achievement in me, when to know my HM made it compulsory for all students to join the Change Your World Tour programme in school as she felt that it was best that students will be able to connect themselves with what's happening around us and to be able to make a stand for what's right and to make a change in our world today. Headed by me and Shu Ern, I guess you could say the students responded fairly well to the slideshow presentation and the vid. So yeah! Dum-dee-dums!

Moving on to something which might interest you...(well not really, but i decided on being random as that was the only efficient way I could liven up this page)
...I well. I never actually tried putting on red nail polish. It's just the colour which brings about the shivers or the chattering of my teeth. People always say it's because it gives that bloody effect causing you to be afraid. But no, looking at it from a different point of view, the red on nails gives me the impression that girls my age look like those ladies with hairstyles shaped like a beehive! The ones you see on the tele with the big rimmed glasses!

Recess Revo's washing cars tomorrow! Hopefully, we'll be quiet enough to sneak out and give all the cars a mighty good scrub.

Happy beEARLY birthday, Joyce.

I owe you a lifetime supply of chocolate chip cookies!

2009-11-04T21:52:00.001+08:00

CHANGE YOUR WORLD TOUR.

TOMORROW.

METHODIST GIRLS SCHOOL.

the people we were meant to be.

2009-11-01T20:51:00.003+08:00

My room could win the award for the ultimate pig sty in Malaysia, yr 2009. Wait! Is it spelt in one word or two? PIG STY...PIGSTY...PIG-STY. No matter...

It took me a heck of a long time just to regather my old text books for tomorrow's text book giveaway.

And maybe I'm to the extent of being frustrated till I'd love to pull my sideburns out cause I can't seem to find my English Literature Book! GAH! Such things should not happen to a person especially when tomorrow's a schoolday. It'd be considered a school night if I had to say so myself.

I wish I had bionic eyes, xray vision goggles which would allow me to track and hunt down that book of mine. It couldn't have possibly walked out or away from my bedroom or the the...area, right on top of the organ chair where my books are currently placed at, collecting dust particles-contributing to my severe dust allergy problem. No wait! It's not that bad.

*slaps herself* Gah sharon! At least have the decency to wrap up the remaining books and find another alternative to replace that irrelevant book which has not brought any benefits in my life except warming my fingers when I flip the pages, with that rustle sound it tends to make.

Konklusinya, I have the greatest proclivity to lose stuff easily.

I shall not mope around anymore. I'll do the wrapping. Wish me luck! =)?

it'll be alright.

2009-11-01T00:09:00.002+08:00

I was deviant arting and a fine frenzying just for the fun of it.

But I'd like to summarize my whole entire two weeks, just to make you feel the agony I've been enduring! Nyeh.

The past two weeks have been rather stodgy actually. How shall I put it?

Intensive cramming! Yeah, that's right.

...

Darn!

anions and cations =.=

2009-10-27T00:18:00.001+08:00

;Friday. It'll come soon. You'll see. =)

home.

2009-10-23T18:38:00.002+08:00

What could you ever do without exam breaks?!

THEY LAST FOR 2 DAYS!

They keep you relaxed.

Well, not really. Cause most of the time, they just pressure you more. And no, I don't mean it gives you an impetus for the coming week!

Look! I learnt a new word?!

GAHH! Of idioms and flowery words. Nevertheless, it's in my vocab list from now on!

'Impetttuuuussssss' *slurs it with bulging eyes to add the more dramatic effect*

DINNER

And then...

ADD MATH!

Oh the joy =.=

maybe we're trying.

2009-10-15T23:35:00.002+08:00

I was checking out those english idioms just for the fun of it! Cause we were talking about it in school today. Of all the things, it just had to be this one.

I happen to think that a person would rock at understanding all these idioms if they're good at reading between the lines. Like take for instance, I have ants in my pants that the exams are coming to an end soon enough. *points* Read between the lines, peopleeee! It makes perfect sense if you do. LoL?

Then again, there are those idioms commonly used such as an apple a day keeps the doctor away. And if you don't know that, then I wouldn't know what you would really know?!

I think I'm going nuts. The days have been sordid, really. Study study study. If it's not draining my energy with the history book, it's either with the biology green reference book or the add math book with all those highlighted doodles on those dog-eared pages?

Bridgette tried to find the point of equilibrium today by stacking a pile of Cezanne's Stabilo highlighters in the physics lab. When she did, I proved to her that some experiments are altered by natural errors such as this one...*blows the highlighters Bridgette stacks up...and it all falls down*...WIND - a cause of these natural errors. Gahh! I still suck at Physics though.

...back to the drawing board. (Not an idiom!)

oh, the boredom.

2009-10-13T23:16:00.003+08:00

Did you know...

That COKE cleans your teeth enamel if drank once a month?

Sure, it corrodes your teeth if you're not too careful with controlling your coke intake.

HARMFUL and yet so good to drink?!

Chemistry makes me go nuts!

creepy.

2009-10-11T00:19:00.001+08:00

Humility.

That's what God's teaching me.

It's this time of the month again.

Books. Books. And more books.

See you on the other side after the 30th.

For now, I'm on study mode.

being understood for the right reasons.

2009-10-03T23:41:00.004+08:00

Here's just a little something I thought you should know about me.

I like working under pressure. I love driving myself and pushing myself to the extent where I know that I've done something beneficial in my life and in others. Something more than just a supporting role.

Sure, it might seem stressful, a burden at that point of time. But heck, you wouldn't know what you're missing until you start feeling a little loosened up.

Bear that in mind.

red bean soup will make your hair drop.

2009-09-25T00:40:00.002+08:00

Earlimart's 'Bloody Nose' makes me sleepy, just by listening to it's monotonous soundwaves.

I'm as crappy as I was yesterday, only I get worse after consuming fish and chips with tartar which I think that explains why there's a bulge at my tummy.

Beverly's foamy soft toy is right next to me, staring at my eye sockets. Ooooh! We have a 'connection' -Not related to that kind of 'chemistry' though.

Maybe it's the coke making me go 'WHOOOP-DEE-DOOO!' ?!

How do you spell HIPPO?! ...HIPPOPOTAMUS?! No wait, that can't be right. I've always imagined hippos to be purple in colour cause they'd look cute as foamy soft toys like the one Beverly gave me for christmas.

Drat! Was it Beverly who gave me that...or worse still?!

If I knew your girlfriend and if I saw you going out with another girl, what do you think I'd do...No no no! *waves hands* That question wasn't exactly directed to anyone.

Well, looks like I'll call it a night.

I might visit the fireflies world tonight and hope for a better way to spend the night.

Geezzz, that didn't make any sense did it?!

WHO LIKES EATING RED BEANS?! I think I know who!

fireflies.

2009-09-23T23:51:00.002+08:00

Today. I was constantly reminded over :

1) How I've not taken the initiative to hit the books for at least an hour or so.

2) How Hugh Laurie rocks my world just by watching reruns of House on the tele.

3) How Mom's carrot cake is still left in the refrigerator to rot when I could be consuming it down to generate the extra energy for muscle contractions at the rib cage. (Another one of those symptoms of Mad Bio Disease)

4) My days of being a kid when balloons and candy floss were prized possesions and ferris wheels were something I would never get down from.

5) How scrumptious KFC's wedges and fried chicken are! They'll make you smile, even on a rainy day.

6) How Andrew tends to get hungry after every meal he's had.

7) How chocolate spread and peanut butter aren't quite something you'd call 'an impressive combination in waffles'. Then again, they still taste awesome to my tastebuds!

8) Certain things I don't want to be reminded about.

a thousand hugs

2009-09-23T17:19:00.001+08:00

Today :

I've not done anything productive which includes reading my biology reference book or even hunting down that baby lizard on the left wall in my bedroom.

Oh the joy.

=.=

Misfit.

2009-09-20T18:04:00.003+08:00

If you look back to a time when things were different than the present. If you took the time to analyze what happened then, what was going through your mind at that point of time. If you were to read up the things you've written, the feelings you've let out, the questions you've left off unanswered, then you'd remember those moments. Those moments of joy, laughter, sadness, frustration, anger, feeling loved, hatred. Those moments which were there for a reason and aren't by accident.

I did the exact same thing. In the past couple of years, I've gained and I've lost. I've lost friends who will always be in my heart but at the same time, I've gained experience for what I've lost in the past. Come to think of it, all these years, I thought it an obstacle. I referred to it as something which can never be forgotten. Something which would swallow me up whole and I'll never see the light of day again. *Naawwwhh! I'm being a little melodramatic here. But it's not. It's been there for a reason. To strengthen me and to shapen me to being who I really am today.

And honestly I don't seem to regret what choices I had to make, what path I took at the end of the day, what has happened throughout these past couple of years. As overwhelming the feeling is, they make me smile. They make me think of how much I've accomplished since I first started out. They make me realize how heated up things will sooner or later settle down and everything will turn out peachy again.

Then again, it's just me. I'm looking at the positive side of things. =)

subtraction.

2009-09-20T00:08:00.012+08:00

I found a sport! Tennis! Well, not really. I think I'll settle with my never ending dream of becoming the world's number 1 hockey player. *That's your cue to start laughing!* Come to think of it, I wonder how my tennis friends endure the agony of butt aches and muscle cramps due to the accumulation of too much lactic acid. Nough of biology. Enjoy the nonsensical pictures. They might inspire you to play tennis too! Whoop-dee-doo! *Sarcasm involved*

battle of the brains.

2009-09-06T21:37:00.008+08:00

These days, I've been rather gallivant to say the least. It's just the feeling where you'd want to make the best out of the opened weeks before heading to 'study-mode' when trials are around the corner. So for the moment. all I've been up to is sleep, more sleep, fooding and moping in my parents bedroom -most of the time to watch the tv as I'd be an interference outside to the munchkin who's occupied with UPSR. Ahh...UPSR, the day I secreted the most sweat out of pure fear of the questions about to be answered by me. But I shall let bygones be bygones!

Moving on to something which'd catch your eye. The all famous, most talked about NERD NIGHT which I must comment on was an eye catching, breath taking? event? Or however you'd put it. For two bright people such as, themselves to formulate a plan soooooooooooooo [state postive adjective eg. superlative]...you'd give them the Einstein award. I hope we're not stereotyping people. It's just the way it is, I guess? Dee dums! I'll let the pictures narrate the whole night for you. My fingers are finally losing their grip and being too stubborn to explain the rest to you.

Pictures are not in order. So don't bother numbering them! hahaha?

Next time.

braces.

2009-09-03T23:09:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since I've last updated. Due to the fact that there's not much to say. Plus, it's been a hectic week. There's not a day which goes by when you can sit, relax and not think of finals and other responsibilities and tasks ahead of you. But, I'll be back. And when I do, run for your lives.

A hullaballoo of hallucination'

2009-08-23T17:24:00.002+08:00

HI! *waves hands in the air*

My name is Bob.

If ya'll don't exactly know me, I'm Sharon's imaginary friend. Or that's what she's convincing you people nowadays.

Sharon can't come to the computer right now.

As she lost for words and she doesn't even know where to start.

She's doing great actually. With the holidays kick starting, she'll be away with her buddies to catch a movie, be stranded on monkey beach for the whole of 2 days with marshmallows to survive on, be shipped off to Kampar for a camp right after that.

She'll be back though.

Soon.

Very very soon.

Signing out -----Bob-

365 days.

2009-08-08T12:38:00.004+08:00

To them who've made a night memorable.

To them who'd always be in my heart.

To them whom I very much love.

Thank you.

The boy

2009-07-29T18:05:00.003+08:00

To the boy who'd made me jealous when mom was hospitalized 12 years ago.

To the boy who'd got all the attention among all the older aunties and uncles during an occasion while I got stuck sulking at the corner.

To the boy who'd steal my chicken portions and mash potato in Kentucky's when we were young.

To the boy who'd insist on following me to all my girl sleepovers, and would kick up a storm if he didn't have his way.

To the boy who wouldn't be afraid to play "jump on the springy bed and sing" with his sister when we were on vacation.

To the boy who'd show off his rap skills when we were on the highway.

To the boy who'd impersonate Family Guy's show toons and funny character phrases when we're stuck in the jam.

To the boy who'd want to sit next to me at every meal during the day.

To the boy who'd cuddle up with me when he had a nightmare a long long time ago.

To the boy who'd hog my favourite chocolate bars in the refrigerator and wouldn't allow me to eat his share of potato chips.

To the boy, I'll find at the computer desk with his knees folded in an upright position everytime I come home from school.

To the boy who's taught me how to watch Naruto.

To the boy who'd humiliate me in front of my friends telling them my past crushes.

To the boy whom I have no trouble telling him my secrets.

To the boy who'd check up on me everytime I'm studying and before I go to bed.

To the boy who was willing to spent an entire night out with 14 of my school friends on Valentine's.

To the boy who's made me smile, laugh, cry, mad.

To the boy who's made my life a memorable one.

The past 12 years could've been a joyride! And without your insanity, joy, laughter, sarcasm, life wouldn't have been the same. I couldn't have hoped for a better brother. You mean alot to me, you idiot! Just make sure you don't swell up due to this very flattering post! Once again, Happy Birthday Shaun! You deserved something special this year. =)

a maze of thoughts.

2009-07-26T17:24:00.003+08:00

Past. Present. Future.

Ivy shared the day before during bible class. And I don't know. My mind succumbed those words and swallowed it whole. Those pesky words lingered on till something dawned on me like a herd of cows rushing to a river stream, water emptied, milk filled which I know is not possible. How we live our past, determines our future in one way or another. The experiences we go through, happiness, joy, heart aches, broken friendships, achieving good grades, getting our hearts broken by a guy/girl shapes us to be stronger than we were before. Drat! I'm clueless on where I go from here.

Nevertheless, I shall point out my amazing weekend since there's very little to say and my brain lacks the ability to express my thoughts deeper.

Ice cream night was a blast. People came with ice cream tubs, bananas (Yes! Bananas), ice cream cones, even root beer and those coloured sickies. With another one of Shaun's amazing ideas to put on Pink Panther 2, which was a stroke of genius, might I add if the motive for coming by for cellgroup was to see James' expression while watching the movie! It was priceless, I tell youuuuuuuuuuu and a very rare occurence to see him laughing his butt off on the cold tiles on the floor due to the 16 degree celcius air conditioning which was still not cold enough! Like I said, people came with ice cream tubs and people LEFT with ice cream tubs as there were too much leftovers and mom needed her freezer back to put in her chicken and fish pieces. Frozen, of course.

JYB sessions are never a drag. When...when you get to glare at your very own coordinator for being late! But that's what happens when you don't have an alarm?! (Guilty yet? =]) And what fun would it be, if the day wasn't well spent in Queensbay for a good whole 2 hours or less with a driver who breaks too much and gave us the thought that we were all going to die sooner or later and girlfriends at the back who were too busy staring out of the glass window while I was squashed up in the middle like tuna in a can. Congratulate me, readers! I went for my first YE sales! After 3 years of invitation from friends.

...

*mind's blank*

I'll update when there's a need to.

tear

2009-07-22T23:03:00.003+08:00

I want to be able to feel.

Not just feel;

But to feel happy again.

To care less about the bad things around me and to focus on the brighter side of things.

I want to expect that I can do better in life.

I want to drive myself, to push myself to overcome my struggles beyond me.

I do not want to regret every day as it passes on and on.

I want to be happy.

Just somehow.

those sordid colours.

2009-07-17T17:32:00.002+08:00

My brain's a wreck. Literally speaking. Due to the massive trunkload of scientific and mathematical phrases I've gathered and stored into my brain and is now currently jumbled up, spiralling around in different directions, I have all the intentions of doing a small operation procedure, maybe remove and extract those brain cells which have been overly used and replenishing new ones. And honestly, I can't be bothered to think of the monthly's. Results will be out, and I anticipate a C, at least for my addmath. Oh the horrors of numbers and completing squares. Screw BIO as well. To my dismay, there were certain questions which could've been answered with more effort and more thinking, but being me, I looked right pass them. On the other hand Chemistry was not all bad? A little here and there of mistakes, but average. An improvement which was something I hoped for.

Question is, have you ever thought about the future, your future? How it's unpredictable, how God places different pathways for us to take even if we wanted to take a different route? There's just too many things to think about. Our career, our family, our life we want to live. *continues thinking* I'll get back to you on that one.

I'm currently dealing with changes. Changes which can't be helped. Changes which are present to help and not to drag me down. Just that, at this moment, it's hard. It hurts. But it's worth while. It's worth going through it.

my eye sockets.

2009-07-05T19:12:00.003+08:00

Coldplay is love.

Coldplay drowns my worries.

Coldplay calms the soul.

Anybody offer to get Chris Martin for me?

I hate my left eye?

I hate my rash infected legs?

But then again, at least it isn't another one of those cornea ulcers or retina tears...or worse still legs which are suppose to be amputated? Or however you define it as.

Biologying can be tough. But it still continues to amaze me in soooooooooo many levels! *winks with her bad eye*

APPLE PIE!

a walk in the park.

2009-06-28T00:05:00.002+08:00

Beau Bristow's concert could've been the BEST acoustic guitarist-drummist-electrisict-baser one man show! It's amazingly awesome to think people like him can be so talented just by pressing pedals and recording different effects...okay that wasn't entirely through! Everybody could do that but not as well as he could. I REEK AT COORDINATION! God does give us talents. And what should we do?! Use it like Beau, to glorify God's name be it performing for many fans out there whom I'm pretty sure by now would want him to come back for another pedalling performance! He's gone through a whole lot, witnessing the death of his grandparents when he was in his teens, losing a girl to another guy no matter how charming and heart wrenching (in a good way) he is! *Pictures anyone?!

2009-06-25T17:49:00.002+08:00

There are those certain moments, where I'd question myself whether I've made a difference in someone's life? It'd be pointless to know, after having to be around for 16 years and you've never plant a seed in someone's heart. What good would living be, then?

Moving on to a lighter note,

A minor rash which was a rather rare occurence if I might point out myself, turned out to be the worst. Though it's getting better in time, all hail to the creaters of rash lotion which might I comment on how sticky it can be at times.

Anymoo, I've finally found one of the many pleasures in life! Nice SWEET AND CREAMY CUSTARD IN THOSE PORTUGESE EGGTARTS which mom willingly made the other day to satisfy my needs!

the things we do.

2009-06-23T22:13:00.003+08:00

*points water gun at her direction*

I'll be dead soon.

My piano's practical pieces are way behind schedule.

I don't even know where to start!

My fingers are being too stubborn to move.

DRAT!!!

On the other hand, I've got my egg tarts! Finally!

more sleep.

2009-06-20T23:54:00.001+08:00

You know what's the darnedest thing?!

Hearing how people fall in love.

There's just that feeling...

Oh gaaahhhhh!

de-shatter.

2009-06-17T23:04:00.002+08:00

This morning I woke up,

This morning I thought,

I pondered on and on about it,

Till the sun went down,

Till everything was painted in darkness,

Till now,

I'm in need of portugese egg tarts!

Oh what tantalizing taste they have!

On the other hand, there's too much to say at the moment. I couldn't care less of updating anything else about the holidays.

Religious Emphasis week starts tomorrow! That's where the fun begins. Another opportunity for students to dedicate/rededicate their lives to God.

Once done, Recess REVO. Which I honestly think, is something I can never be patient about. I sense, there's something happening. And this time, it's God-sent.

Chemistry is giving me headaches. I recuperate by playing Waka-Waka. Which I think I'm turning obsessed.

It's hookishly interesting actually. Not as interesting as my egg tarts though.

Road trip to KL -fireBRANDS

2009-06-14T21:18:00.009+08:00

A quaint little hotel with huge plasma screen TV's accomodated us for the specific 3 days.

We can't get enough of huge mirrors in small little hotels, can we?!

BEEF and mutton satay will suffice whenever we're starved!

Satay tends to get sanguines high.

PacMAN revived!

An identical version of Garfield, only cooler and very passionate to see the Youth of Malaysia take a stand in our world today.

The couple in action!

Oversized BACON wrapped burgers might get you a ticket to the next Biggest Loser's series. Watch out Andrew?!

The onion ringERS!

Mutton for dinner.

Nicole's version of saying "OH MYYY GOSHHH!"

Curry mee for supper knocks your socks off!

We taboo-ed!

Work out session starts now! Get your free exercise at any escalator in any shopping mall!

right in front of me.

2009-06-04T23:52:00.000+08:00

Sarawak; here I come.

invisible rainbows.

2009-06-01T20:25:00.002+08:00

As to maintain the standards of being an active blogger which I know I've already failed miserably, I've decided to give a quick and early write up on an ACTSperience which will forever be etched in my heart.

I was given the opportunity (thanks to my folks whom had been kind enough to allow me) to join some of the fireBRANDS to KL. An exposure trip, I gather. Nevertheless, it turned out to be even more meaningful and more significant than just an exposure trip which was the main objective of going over to KL.

My first impression on the ACTS church. Lets just say I expected them to be a church with a huge heart for God, passionate to change the world and follow Christ to the ends of the earth. They met up to more than my expectations, to tell you the truth. Their hospitality. One which you can never find elsewhere. Through the years, I've known churches to be hospitable, in a sense where they had ushers to shake a few hands and greet you good morning before entering. But in ACTS, it was a huge difference. Having been there only once, they had tonnes of ushers, ready to greet you, from where you park your car all the way up to where you'd be seated on that morning. We were each given a tote bag filled with their own personalized note book, their updates schedule and etc., when we walked in. There were so many ushers to shake hands with, you'd feel as if you're a star. Even through their announcements, when we're asked to stand up, it felt like a herd of cows (ALOT) rushing over to greet us with their warm smiles. Something which would make your day. It's their hospitality which really amazes me at this point. Watching the members of ACTS church work as a community, having a family orientated concept, hospitable enough to take into consideration of others around them and totally on fire for God can really make you believe that ACTS church is one which practices a christian lifestyle. It's hard to explain.

As for my fellow room mates and the rest of us who's been having sore buttocks for the whole entire weekend, I guess you could say, it was a time where we've learnt more of one another and bonded with one another more. By singing an impersonation of Timon and Pumba's Hakunamatata, sharing a huge plate of chicken rice, getting teased over how the Cheese Naan was exquisite, drinking each other's pebbles in a Ribena shake at Steven's, playing taboo and assuming the rest would know the answer even when you gave a dumb clue, sharing your mentos with someone who was too sleepy to go through the morning service, shopping with a friend who's in need of new shoes after having to march in her heels for more than 5 hours, sharing your mutton and tomato rice with someone who isn't capable with eating a whole plate, falling asleep on someone else's bed when the rest were still awake, laughing over a sick joke which was rather hilarious in the middle of the night, looking for a nice shirt to buy which fits you, hogging over hotdogs with onions and green relish, waiting for a friend in need of a new pillow, or even laughing your way back to Penang by renaming Leroy as Aminah has made me realize that these are moments which has made me smile and made this trip a meaningful one.

Though there's alot more to say, I'll end here.

Pictures to come soon after.

steady now.

2009-05-28T22:02:00.003+08:00

At some point in life, you'd start to feel the weight of everything on you. And at times, it might pull you down with it, leaving you feeling as if you'd wish to hide from the world and not wanting to face reality only to be dragged down with those bottled up emotions and pressure.

These days,
I've been...busy. Lets just put it that way. Busy sorting out stuff which has been piling up even if I've been anticipating a well deserved break. Busy sorting out my emotions, you could say. Looking back, I should be thankful I've even come this far without having to break down.

Being the head of the procession in during teachers day might be simple. Not quite. Having to settle 18 pieces of bamboos which should be cut accurately from their original state (Humungusly-ceiling-touching-long) and estimating how many potted plants we'd need to junglefy a huge hall can take up a load of your time, cause you to have constant migraines from all the mental and physical strain. But i guess you could say, I've managed to pull it off with two of my most trusted committee members. Credits to Cezanne and Sammie.

Newspaper in Education, for pete's sake! Not magazine in education. Though I've given up on justifying my case to my English teacher on how it should really be a newspaper template and not those glossy-colourful paper, I think we did a pretty good job. Considering, it was a two day thing. It might look a lot like a newspaper, but heck, I had fun. I think?

Moral folio. Kesan yang saya telah peroleh sewaktu menjalankan aktiviti mendirikan sebuah taman renjer di sekolah saya ialah, ia telah menyedarkan saya bahawa pentingnya untuk menjaga dan menghargai alam sekitar. Tidak dapat dinafikan bahawa alam sekitar merupakan ciptaan Tuhan yang seharusnya dipelihara supaya tidak mengalami kepupusan.

Rangers log book, I've been dreading. So many places we've visited, meaning more reports. I don't mind the fact of having to walk 7 km to discover more of Penang and maybe take a few snap shots, but preparing a log book just for it can sometimes BRING ABOUT MORE HEADACHES! =)

There are those times when after having too much to do, you shut people off completely. Closing off any means of wanting to feel happy. It numbs you and your emotions altogether.

I don't want to be that person.

I'll try not to be that person?

crying out for consistency.

2009-05-21T22:15:00.003+08:00

Ahh...

Those days when studying was not optional.

It was sordid and tiring to say the least and yet, as much as I knew I could've put in a little more effort in this term, I was far too astute and confident thinking I'd be better off recapping back everything in a matter of hours.

Smooth move, Sharon. But most definitely the wrong one.

Moving onto a lighter note,

now that exams are over and done with,

the stress level which has been incrementing the past couple of weeks due to extra assignments, school work, church priorities would be shrinking its way down into the bottomless of all bottomless pits!

Tomorrow's a brand new day. One which doesn't include lack of sleep, burning the midnight oil to memorize definitions on bio, chemistry...worst still Physics.

I'll be back with a better post.

Someday...

my dented wall.

2009-05-17T00:48:00.003+08:00

No... Exams are yet to be over.

But the sudden thought sprang up into my mind like it was God-sent.

So I'm taking the liberty to dedicate this post to many of you kiddies, teenagers, middle agers, folks and seniors who're currently going through a pretty rough time, who're soaking in your own hurts and pains which have brought you nothing more but misery, who're lacking perseverance and are wanting to give up as it wouldn't make a difference.

...

GOD IS IN FULL CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE.

At this time, when you might be struggling to steer yourself towards the opposite direction of these obstacles, know that you are not alone. God is with you through the good and the bad. And it's through these situations which we are placed in, where lessons in life can be learnt. Where we'd realize in the passing of time, that these obstacles of such were there to strengthen us, so that when other problems arise in the mere future, we will be well prepared for the worst.

Smile?

little by little.

2009-05-03T21:20:00.003+08:00

Every second, every minute, every hour, every day brings me closer to my midyear exams.

DARN those study books which i have evil intentions on burning them with my cooking stove!

...

the way it works.

2009-04-21T20:22:00.002+08:00

1) I've decided on getting a new water tumbler. One which survives constant clumsy falls.
2) Shoulder aches increases the chances of obtaining eye bags due to restless nights in bed.
3) Ulcers crave for ice cream on cold, rainy days.
4) I love migraines! They're your escape ticket out of school. Though that really isn't a good thing.
5) My biology book is calling out to me with it's hypnotic powers.
6) I'm still in need of ice cream and smushed peanuts.
7) Ooooohhh COOKIES!

so, come home.

2009-04-16T18:13:00.004+08:00

That's why I love the fireBRANDS.

Ice in my tea.

2009-04-09T20:05:00.004+08:00

Yesterday. It rained. Today. It poured. Though it already seemed flagrant enough that the rain wouldn't stop, I didn't mind. Getting out from bed was the hardest, especially during rainy mornings. Nevertheless, I managed to pull myself out, resisting the urge to fall back into deep sleep again- to 'readify' myself before the beginning of school.

Rain or shine. Sun or clouds? Drizzle or a high humidity level or was it low? MGS does have it's perks when it comes to organizing the anual sports day...Without an appropriate field, (which isn't damp and soggy like the one in PKSW) having the event in the school hall was a rather extreme alternative, none the less. but it did save us all the trouble from walking over to Westlands.

I WON A MEDAL FOR A TELEMATCH! Such enthusiasm, no?!

The cheerleading squad was named Memphis, this year. Look up Memphis in the Form 4 History book and you'll find it somewhere in the first chapter. Hahaha!

Watching Romeo and Juliet was the hardest moment for me today. Just think! The agony i had to go through when having my elbows withstand the weight of me, while lying forward to stare at the tele...Gahh! I give up at making this an interesting post.

easy way out.

2009-04-05T18:28:00.002+08:00

Life ends all too short at times. To think, some of us tend to ignore the harsh realities of life till they hit us in the face like a yellow school bus accelerating at full speed. Sure, self-experience would be the best way to go, to know how'd it feel like. But then again, shouldn't we be equipping ourselves, preparing ourselves if anything were bound to happen?

Darn, I'm rambling again. But it was just a sudden thought which I could never get out of my mind. It might not seem to make any sense, though.

world domination.

2009-04-01T20:58:00.002+08:00

Geeks were never meant to rule the world!

#1 An old-existing script which's never been touched since year 2006

#2 Three day long practises

...might just award you 1st in a choral speaking competition.

the small things in life.

2009-03-30T20:46:00.002+08:00

I anticipated for a sudden inspiration to appear out of nowhere from that small noggin' of mine for another blog post. And as much as it might not be her birthday, but she deserves a personal shout out, just to show her how much she means to not just me, but everyone else.

So here's to you, Sarah Khoo Yoong Wei (if I got that right...) - friend, manasseh-nite (I still count you in), floorballer, captain baller, personal chauffeur when I'm desperate, tom-yam partner, and by far the best female player for the sought after game, Left 4 Dead.

The years have gone by, like a minute hand going through an hour on a clock and never have I regretted having you as a friend. Though we might not have our own special childhood memory, but those significant moments during our adolescent years can never be replaced.

A thousand thank you's will only suffice for all the joy and laughter we've shared together, as friends. The times when we'd be going on about how we wanted tom-yam for supper while others were being indecisive on the location for our usual supper routines after youth, the funny talks we had in the car when you were driving me home, the spontaneity we did by doing all those creative poses in snap shots and just about everything which I can never think of now.

I thank God for you. And as the years go by, I hope that this genuine friendship we have now will continue to remain...You knock my socks off, KUTU!

Inside joke : Please fetch me homeeee!

everything I should be.

2009-03-28T23:34:00.002+08:00

I tend to think about :

1) Chocolate ice cream with extra thick chocolate topping and nuts sprinkled on top.

2) How I need another hair cut.

3) Tomorrow.

4) My past and how far I've come through.

5) My achievements and goals.

6) How scary butterflies are.

7) The future and what lies ahead of me.

8) People.

colors

2009-03-26T21:24:00.002+08:00

When it comes to physics exercises, I have the tendency to procrastinate on completing it. To think, it's getting incredously challenging and might I add, the amount of formulas and funny looking symbols which I'm pretty confident I wouldn't be exercising in the next 10 years time, are incrementing rapidly. Then again, without the knowledge of physics, there wouldn't be bridges and tall-looking buildings with strong foundations which are competent to withstand heavy weights, is there? Did I ever mention today's, rambling day? And I know how readers wouldn't be too keen on me murmuring over and over again on how physics and I aren't exactly working out...

Moving on,

Choral speaking practises have become a usual routine. And to tell you the frightful truth, I enjoy having to run through the whole script and back to the top again! 4 Science 1 sure didn't have it the easy way out. With only given 3 weeks to select a non-obscure script, we managed to find the perfect one. And though it might've been a little last minute, I think we're on the verge of not embarassing ourselves on stage?

...This is the song about colors?

You see them all around!

There is red on the traffic light,

Green on the trees...

Darn! I'd best be on my way before I start.

bring on the rain if you must.

2009-03-16T18:58:00.004+08:00

Changes. As much as I wish this wasn't true, but changes really are inevitable in life. Changes are bound to occur every once in a while. Be it temporarily or permanently. I for one, hate change. I dwell on my past habits, love my old routines and despise the way how they tend to change every now and then through the passing of time. But then again, maybe they aren't so bad after all. Maybe, through changes in life, lessons will be learnt. I believe that God places all these for a reason and for a purpose. In one way or another, i guess, it's to strengthen us in many areas of our lives?

21st of March 2009.

Andrew talked about faith today. And truly, without having to listen to something so powerful which I believed has impacted us all for the better, and to make us realize that faith is important and is required in each and everyone of us if we want to be an irresistible influence to the world.

This post really isn't getting anywhere but I guess it comes as a result to someone who hasn't been an active blogger. Considering all the times I've been cramming physics facts into my head just to get through a monthly test which i must say was rather...okay?

Bee stings can be harmful! And the funny thing is, you'd never know when you'd get stung by a bee. Of all the odds, it might even allow you to escape from all the NS training and talks except to make you lie down on the sick bed till you feel much better!

Did I mention how the Crimson Chin in Fairly Odd Parents (a cartoon programme which must've been created by a genius) is creeping me out? That overly large chin of a super hero's...Gahh! It gives me the shivers. And to make matters worse, it's RED! Hot, STRIKINGLY-YOU CAN NEVER MISS IT-RED! Then again, I'm getting a little too old to be watching illogical kiddy programmes which never sum up to anything beneficial for your brain.

Darn those bees and their stings!

so far away from where you are.

2009-02-26T23:47:00.001+08:00

"Sometimes they come back, sometimes they don't. But they are always there"

2009-02-08T23:15:00.003+08:00

Beberapa tahun sudah lalu, dan ku tidak akan melupai mu, Nabila...

Lets scratch out the attempts on making this a radical post, shall we? After all, it was by luck that I surprisingly did alright for BM? Anymoo! Here's to you Nab. The bestest of best friends any girl could ever have.

Thank you for 8 years of countless moments of joy and neverending laughter. Thank you for the fun times we've shared as acquaintences, buddies, friends, partners and sisters. Thank you for all the tiring games you'd create when we were 8 on the field, thank you for the times we'd play 'happy family', 'doctors and nurses' and 'mama's cookie shop' during our primary years. Thank you for the times, YOU GOT ME IN TROUBLE IN CLASS WHEN I WANTED TO COPY YOUR EXERCISES! I'll miss it all! Oh, how I'd miss the times when we'd start side tracking after doing Math when we were form 3. I'll miss those moments when we'd start singing to Demi Lovato's/Busted's songs or even imitating Ryan Higa with Chuin! I'll miss those days when I'd annoy you with Twilight facts which WE ALL KNOW you despise! I'll miss having to discuss with you about History and Geography! I'll miss BACKWARDS DAY, you stupidly created! I'll miss having to watch you sit cross-legged under the table to read your harry potter novel whenver you felt our subject teachers were much of a bore!

Little things but nevertheless, very significant in my life.

Truly, you've been an amazing friend and ex-partner! Your witty personality which has never failed to make me giggle in school. Your boisterous and loud character whenever you felt like entertaining me with another one of your lame statements! Your love and care whenever I felt like giving up, whenever I felt like I wasn't on the right path in life. All of which has impacted my life tremendously and has changed me for the better. I can never thank you enough, Nab!

Nab, don't let fear hold you back from doing whatever you want to do in your life. But most importantly never give up, instead, hold on to what you believe in and move forward! Once more, best wishes for the future! May you continue to rock on as an awesommmeeeee friend!

With lots of love,

Your partner (2008)

2009-01-27T23:12:00.000+08:00

I feel like I'm missing 2008 loh.

losing everything.

2009-01-24T12:26:00.001+08:00

God, give me strength to hold on.

close all doors behind me.

2009-01-17T22:35:00.003+08:00

And yet another day, I stare right out from the window pane some few meters away from where I'm seated in the physics lab. The glaring sun illuminating the room which always was a little dim. From where I am, I hear the watch on my left wrist ticking it's way to 12.45 pm. I sit and wait for the time to pass it's way through, for the time to make it's way to when the school bell would ring in such a blare that class 4 Science 1 would disperse in a hurry, leaving me slowly to attend to my school books. Ring. There goes the bell. BOOM. There goes the classroom of 38 girls excluding me. I leisurely pack up my things. With my unhurried pace, I place the exercise books to one compartment and the text books in the other. Zip, goes my bag. Out I go, strolling along the corridors, making my way to the canteen where all the commotion took place...

...Gahh! I'm in need of inspiration.

stupefy

2009-01-10T14:46:00.003+08:00

Year 2009. I wasn't to the extent of being drowned in anxiety for this year to come. I almost wished that time could stay still. To tell you the truth, I was apathetic the past week. The thought of being 16, the thought of having to put myself through new subjects in school is simply arduous and burdensome...

Lesson learnt. Live with it and move forward.

renew.

2009-01-05T18:57:00.001+08:00

-2009, a year of difference-

return.

2008-12-26T11:38:00.011+08:00

I wasn't exactly to the extent of being exhilarated, neither was I reluctant to attend this year's Christmas Party. Though I must admit, it turned out to be quite a huge success. Deborah's house looked like some christmas theme showroom, really! With a humungus christmas tree right next to the entrance which was mainly getting all the attention from the guys who were mingling around that area.

A couple of pictures to get the post going. This entry needs some colour anyways.

Early was I. But nevertheless, I'd skip right to the part where we got cracking with dinner which was laid out next to the garden. It was excruciatingly painful for the brain trying to grasp the concept of how Judson conducted the 'string game', with Gerald adding to the suspense with his frequent usage of the phrase "NOW NOOOOO MOREEEEE!" I'm not usually the type to fall back and let the whole situation go, but this time round, it was different and I was partially agitated to think that my brain wasn't finding the solution to the game.

So... I managed to pull myself through and forget about that silly game? It's been an amazing night. Having to meet up with close friends before christmas, snapping pictures of people, exchanging presents, wishing everyone a merry christmas, providing hugs to those who wanted one?

I know I don't usually give captions for pictures but this is a must! To GARY! You're a lucky man!

Best Campers for year 2006, 2007 & 2008.

Pictures above were carefully stolen from Andrew Chan Wei Kin!

All in all, it was a night to remember.

papercut.

2008-12-24T14:19:00.002+08:00

If i were to give a write-up on this year's annual youthcamp, I'd skip the formalities, I'd screw all the overrated phrases like "ooooooohhhh! YOUTH CAMP was AWESOME, as ALWAYS". This year, I've giving it a tinge of difference. Five days in Hosba Valley could've been tiring considering that it's quite a distance from the hall where we had most of the programs to the dorms we were sleeping in, but I'm truly amazed on how God came down and visited each and everyone of our hearts during that period of time. A life changing 5 day camp if i may say so myself, one which has given us all the opportunity to experience God in many different ways, be set free from the many bondages we held on to and to be transformed to follow him for eternity.

How's that for a change from a simple "YOUTH CAMP WAS FUN!"??!!!

On the other hand, I find the environment different. Something we all need to get away from all those built in air-conditioning service rooms with nice morning call facilities from the lobby! Bathrooms were clean too! Tho i attempted to fix a certain shower???

My brain needs to recharge. And really, that's all i could come up with at the moment.

i drew.

2008-12-21T16:54:00.011+08:00

To the idiot, the silly duck, the nut freak, the 'greatest guy ever lived' (or so he calls himself) whom I've known for a long time. You've been dying for your own birthday shoutout/entry since a couple of months ago and so, I'm taking the liberty to write one up now tho I know for sure that you'd probably be stuck somewhere in Chiang Mai which means you better suck it up and wait till you're back in Penang to read this entry.

Nevertheless, I shall start by saying and telling the whole wide world that you've been a blessing towards me and others. With you around, it's hard to look at that watch on my wrist and think when is this whole conversation with this bozo head going to be over. With you around, it's hard to resist the temptation of laughing my guts out whenever you pull out another prank on someone of even start your very egoistic jokes which might i add, never fail to make me giggle! With you around, it's hard to purse my lips together and hope they don't turn into a wide grin whenever you do your silly gestures!

Thank you, Justin Loh for every insignificant, meaningful, thoughtful and etc. thing you've done in my life. Thank you for the times we've shared as friends, thank you for the many moments you've made me laugh uncontrollaby, thank you for all the times you've placed a smile on my face whenever I felt a little down. Thank you for showing me that I can make the impossible, possible! Thank you for you.

With this, I end by saying, BACKSIDE! You rock as a friend. And truly, there really isn't anyone like you in this whole entire world. And life would be less interesting if you weren't in it. Keep on shining for God like you've always been. Never do give up! When you feel like everything's crushing you from the outside, don't you dare give up! Instead, persevere and take one step at a time.

Happy be-lated 17th birthday! You know you're awesome!

blue oranges.

2008-12-03T20:45:00.002+08:00

My stomach's yearning for :

1. Chocolate-coated sundae with hazelnut sprinkles on top.

2. Fried bacon with eggs on toast.

3. A combination of Iced Milo and Coke.

I have the sudden urge to :

1. Do the rain dance!

2. Shave off Kyle Patrick's hair!

3. Blow bubbles into my own eyes! (Highly unlikely!)

4. Thumb wrestle with the munchkin.

the things we do.

2008-11-29T23:35:00.003+08:00

To give you all readers out there a 'taste' on what's happening.

The cow's been rather occupied with everything lately. As much as it has been an exciting school-less week, but things/tasks are starting to pile up as usual. Excluding the studying part.

Junior Youth Band has been pretty awesome. With the upcoming arrival of little ones and maybe not-so-little ones, they've made this whole saturday-9.00a.m. activity a very enjoyable one! Here's to Sarah Wong who's been rocking on the drums and Marilyn Kee on the bass!

Junior Youth Retreat. Who would think that Indy could talk that much? And Zeph has an amount of self esteem which would reach the heavens! Who would think you'd get to fix a broken toilet, especially when it doesn't flush? Who would think you'd have the opportunity to show Eu-Jeen your super strength as you can push a van till it starts to move? Who would think you'd break into a lobby through the kitchen window to start jamming with the guitars? I'd tell you who...NO ONE!

Theme Night - I can't say it wasn't fun cause...looking back, it really was. It could've been a little gruesome especially when you're trying to yank out that brain of yours for more ideas, finding keys to the store room with a broken heel! But as much as it could've been a complete mess, I've enjoyed myself to the fullest. And I hope the rest of you had too!

Youth Camp's around the corner. Christmas would soon pass and school would re-open! Ahhh...life. Feels a little fast.