if you could change the way things are.
all that we needed_
'love is overrated...true love isn't'

Right now, I'm feeling rather insecure...the funny thing is, I don't know why.

Having sleepless nights are not my thing, but it was just that one time-
[that one time= yesterday] I couldn't help but to think about everything that has occured for the past few months. Scenes have been replaying in my head the whole time, and it just struck me as how lucky I am to have...

Friends you can count on and who'll always be at your side whenever you're feeling a little down, checking up on you to see if you're feeling okay, 'certain friend[s]' that are understanding and sometimes might be the only person who understands what you're going through the whole entire time no matter how complicated your life would be...

And then there are times when you think you had it all, but then everything suddenly fades away. Before you know it- there's completely nothing left. Just you and well, the whole world against you.

I've stumbled, I've fallen down into that deep, dark hole...and I'm still wondering whether if it's still possible that I'll ever pick myself up again and start moving on. So maybe I am suppose to look on the brighter side of things..."start smiling and laughing" like how Andrew calls it. It may all look so easy to accomplish, but nu-uhh, it's hard...harder than you can ever imagine.

I've tried, believe me...I've tried. Maybe I didn't try hard enough?