if you could change the way things are.

If you look back to a time when things were different than the present. If you took the time to analyze what happened then, what was going through your mind at that point of time. If you were to read up the things you've written, the feelings you've let out, the questions you've left off unanswered, then you'd remember those moments. Those moments of joy, laughter, sadness, frustration, anger, feeling loved, hatred. Those moments which were there for a reason and aren't by accident.

I did the exact same thing. In the past couple of years, I've gained and I've lost. I've lost friends who will always be in my heart but at the same time, I've gained experience for what I've lost in the past. Come to think of it, all these years, I thought it an obstacle. I referred to it as something which can never be forgotten. Something which would swallow me up whole and I'll never see the light of day again. *Naawwwhh! I'm being a little melodramatic here. But it's not. It's been there for a reason. To strengthen me and to shapen me to being who I really am today.

And honestly I don't seem to regret what choices I had to make, what path I took at the end of the day, what has happened throughout these past couple of years. As overwhelming the feeling is, they make me smile. They make me think of how much I've accomplished since I first started out. They make me realize how heated up things will sooner or later settle down and everything will turn out peachy again.

Then again, it's just me. I'm looking at the positive side of things. =)